feelings ...beep boop

Or: WTF Circadian Rhythms?

Most of my life, I have been a night owl. I figured it was hereditary, since my mom is the same way. In fact, I think she sleeps for four hours a night on average. The degree of insomnia I would experience would wax and wane, but in general, I wanted to go to bed as late as possible and sleep all morning. It interfered with my life when insomnia got really bad: going to bed at 3 am and shambling into work (usually a couple of minutes late) at 8:30 all disoriented. I was resentful and grumpy, and always kind of mocked THOSE MORNING PEOPLE. How dare they be productive at sparrowfart o' clock! For a while, my current job really enabled my broken sleep schedule because I could get away with coming in at like 10. Getting up in the morning was still an exercise in pain and scatterbrained frustration.

( CUE A BUNCH OF BLATHERING ABOUT MY ROUGH LIFE AND MY SHIT SLEEPING HABITS )

Thanks, early morning sleeplessness! At least I get to leave work earlier! Now if I could figure out a way to be more productive before I go to work, that would be fabulous.

I made a recent discovery that I have the Hub channel and, of course, on the Hub channel exists PONIES. But in my time zone, My Little Pony starts at 6am during the week, except for on Mondays, where it starts at 5:30am. Now, I am no means a morning person. No matter how hard I fucking try, I can't be a morning person. I'm really fucking tired of people irl trying to bootstrap me into being one because just because YOU can do it, doesn't mean I can do it so just lay the fuck off okay?

So. I thought, why not get up early enough during the week just so I can watch PONIES? Obviously, I could record it for later, but that defeats the purpose of this whole exercise, which is to wake up early and brainwash myself with unbridled lack of cynicism and the magic of friendship!

So far this week I have failed :'(

But there's always next week!